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"Lost fish," writes Howell Raines, "chasten us to the knowledge that we are all, in each and every moment, dwindling. Imagine my surprise when I discovered well into my sixth decade that losing fish can prepare us for a blessing as well as for pain."

Confronting loss -- of an elusive fish or something larger -- is at the heart of The One That Got Away, the graceful sequel to Raines's much-loved, bestselling memoir Fly Fishing Through the Midlife Crisis, published to great acclaim in 1993. With the same winning combination of reminiscences, anecdotes, philosophy and fishing lore, his bold new memoir covers the eventful years in this latest passage of his life, and the realization that in relinquishing his former identity as a newspaperman he has actually gotten what he wanted, just in the most unlikely way.

In wry and witty prose, Raines shifts between fishing vignettes and personal reflections on his childhood, his second marriage, his relationships with his two sons, the trajectory of his career at The New York Times and his move toward old age. At the center of his narrative is his most thrilling fishing adventure -- an epic battle with a marlin he hooked and fought for more than seven hours in the South Pacific -- which comes to symbolize his growing understanding and acceptance of the unpredictability of luck, love, lies and life, and how the unexpected can, in fact, be an opportunity to make life more interesting.

Raines's wonderful descriptions of streams, people and fish; his passion for angling and writing; and his wise and perceptive commentary on the vagaries of his own life combine to create a profound book -- one of undeniable appeal and uncommon heart.

Product Details

• Amazon Sales Rank: #778831 in Books
• Published on: 2006-05-02
• Original language: English
• Number of items: 1
• Binding: Hardcover
• 336 pages

From Booklist
Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist and avid fly fisherman Raines looks back at his life, his career, and his downfall at the New York Times after the Jayson Blair scandal. Skillfully drawing parallels between the deceptions practiced by fishermen, journalists, and politicians, Raines describes his love of the unpredictability of fishing and of life. He offers his own fish tale, a long and beautifully told saga of fishing on Christmas Island, interspersed with other recollections, from boyhood to adulthood. Memories of Captain Beddingood, owner of a fish camp, segue into a painful account of how management at the Times was lulled into believing in the capabilities of Blair, later spectacularly disclosed as a plagiarist. Though Raines' tenure as executive editor started after Blair began his reporting career with the paper, Raines was toppled in the housecleaning that followed Blair's firing and left to examine his own shortcomings. Long before his ouster, Raines had been coming to grips with his disappointment with his beloved Times, a paper some of the staff thought was not as good as it could be, hidebound by tradition and by defenders who took refuge in the truism that it's hard to turn a battleship. With extraordinary grace, Raines explores some missteps that have haunted him so long "as to become icons of instruction about the importance of avoiding avoidable mistakes." Although he directly addresses "brothers and sisters of the angle," Raines' writing is poetry to all of us. Vanessa Bush
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Review
"An instinctual writer and storyteller." -- New York Magazine

"Raines is a superb writer. Few memoirs are so splendidly articulated." -- The Washington Post

"Raines skillfully weaves together tales of his love of fly fishing with stories of his love of journalism." -- Sacramento Bee

"[A] fish tale of sorts… told eloquently and with great wit." -- New York Sun

"[An] easy chair of a book. Raines [is] frank and engaging." -- Time

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In a century of fly fishing, one thing has not changed. "It is our lost fish that I believe stay longest in memory, and seize upon our thoughts whenever we look back on fishing days." A paradigmatic Victorian gentleman, Lord Grey of Fallodon, published those words in a book called Fly Fishing in 1899. Over one hundred years later, there is still nothing as gone, as utterly lost to us, nothing as definitely absent and irretrievable as a lost fish.

"Seize our thoughts" is an apt phrase, for there are some lost fish that haunt us like old love. They live forever in what Izaak Walton called "the boxes of memory." Yet not all lost fish are equal. Sometimes there is a soothing completeness to the loss of a specific fish. The encounter has an accommodating narrative arc -- a beginning, a middle and a conclusion, at which, for some reason, one does not feel robbed. These flashes of enlightenment are rare and a blessing when they come. But fishing in the main does not allow for such an absence of Avarice, such a deliverance from Desire and its handmaiden Regret. That is because, once a fish is on our line, we don't want the imperial feeling of possession ever to end.

The governing emotion of fishing therefore is not one of attainment but one of anxiety about incipient loss. Every moment that a fish is on the line, we dread the sensation of being disconnected against our will, of being evaded, escaped from, of grabbing and missing. Every fish that slips the hook instructs us in the surgical indifference of fate. For like fate, a fish only seems to be acting against us. It is, in fact, ignorant of us, profoundly indifferent, incapable of being moved by our desires, by our joy or sorrow. We regard the moment when the fish rises to a fly as a triumph of piscatorial artistry, and when the line breaks or the hook pulls out, we feel cheated, outfoxed, chagrined. We take it personally. But to the fish, such an encounter is simply an interruption, unremarkable and unremembered, in the instinctual, self-absorbed journey of fulfilling its fishhood. What we experience as an exercise of will and hope, the fish encounters as an accident, no more or less remarkable than meeting a shrimp.

So, perforce, each departed fish pushes us toward a dim, momentary and reluctant acceptance of that inescapable fact against which the mind constantly rebels. For against all reason and evidence, we try to believe that life is shaped by a process of acquisition. It is, in fact, a process in which our dear things slip away, slowly and elegantly if we are lucky, rapidly and brutally if we are not. We try to believe, in poor old Jim Dickey's mysterious line, that we can "die but not die out." Lost fish remind us that time, like an undertow or gravity itself, will pull us down, will confound every hope of lasting, every dream of possessing something -- anything -- wonderful for more than an instant. Lost fish chasten us to the knowledge that we are all, in each and every moment, dwindling. Imagine my surprise when I discovered well into my sixth decade that losing fish can prepare us for a blessing as well as for pain.

Accepting the latter, the hurtful, seemingly accidental losses that life imposes on all of us, did not come naturally to me. I remember the resistance I felt in college when my favorite professor, a wizened, erudite man named Richebourg Gaillard McWilliams, was making a point about one of Nathaniel Hawthorne's doom-clouded stories. "Everyone who lives has to accept something that may seem impossible to the young. At some point in your life, you will come to know great sadness. You will lose something precious. Remember this." He did not speak another word, but we understood that class was over.

The professor's son, Tennant McWilliams, was my closest friend, and I knew from him the piercing experience that lay behind the old man's words. When it came to sorrow, life had given him no grace period. Mr. McWilliams was three when his mother, pregnant with what would have been her second child, died in a fall down the hard, steep stairs of an antebellum house in the Alabama Black Belt. A dozen years later, Richebourg McWilliams's father died of a heart attack when the two of them were quail hunting not far from that fine, airy, oak-shaded house. Theirs was a plantation family tracing its roots back to fifteenth-century French Huguenots who had gone to the rack in Languedoc. But in the end these landed gentlefolk, who owned cotton fields, sawmills and steamboats, were as vulnerable as the blacks who served them or the white yeomen who scratched livings from patchwork farms in the Alabama hills. Richebourg McWilliams, indeed, was no luckier in respect to the wounds of mortality than my own father, who was haunted all his life by the early death of a parent on one of those hill country farms at about the same time.

I speak of these things in the context of lost fish, because in fly fishing as in life it is always possible to make things worse, through clumsiness perhaps or hubris. Say, for example, you tighten the drag on a fish that has just seen the net. Or perhaps the fish was well hooked and you say to yourself in the tiniest mental whisper, "Oh, yes, this wonderful creature is truly mine," when it has not yet been taken from the spacious, amniotic embrace of its watery home. If you conflate this kind of carelessness with unrepeatability -- with knowing that you have blundered away a pleasing coincidence that will not come again -- then, my friends, you have a departed fish that will never desert you. Certain of my lost fish -- a largemouth bass in Alabama, a brown trout on the Missouri River, a permit in Belize -- have been with me so long as to become icons of instruction about the importance of avoiding avoidable mistakes. I think of the respective mishaps by which they gained their freedom and I gained pedagogic memories -- with the bass, an overtight drag; with the trout, a strike too hard by half; with the permit, a hook set slow as the thunder that follows lightning down a mountain.

Unlike Mr. McWilliams and my father, I knew little as a child about unavoidable losses, those to which one responds with courage or by being crushed. I had few occasions until comparatively late in life to consider the hierarchy of losses, to learn about assessing them in the way of Tennyson, who said that, while much may vanish from our lives at any given moment, much abides. Comrades, those words seem less facile to me now than when I first read them, for reasons I hope to illustrate. For the nonce, however, let us return to the subject of lost fish, if for no other reason than to prove how capacious a sentence was left to us by Lord Grey. For example, when I think of lost fish, I often turn in memory to the falsetto hotel keeper in Bellagio. The town is on Lake Como near the Swiss Alps. This is Mussolini country. Nearby, irritated Italians put an entire platoon's supply of bullets into Benito and his foolish mistress, Clara Petacci, and then hung them upside down, like marlin or tuna.

Unlike fish, they were dangled in a spirit of ridicule rather than admiration.

Anyway, that was the neighborhood, and the hotel keeper of whom I speak had a voice like a set of church bells. I knew, of course, that the age of the castrati was three hundred years past, but his voice had that kind of purity, a boy's voice pushed into an artificial tingling range beyond soprano.

The man with the wonderful voice and his mother owned a small hotel of austere, clean rooms. I spent a night or two there before moving into the nearby Villa Serbelloni, a writers' colony where I was to stay for the month of September 1991. The two of them, mother and son, radiated a kind of contentment you used to see among Southern families in which one or more unmarried sons or daughters remained at home and grew old with the parents. Down in small-town Alabama, these were often the most cultivated families. You would see them together -- gardening, dining out, going to church or to musicales or to Birmingham for the symphony, cruising in their Buicks on Sunday afternoon -- in a bond whose sweetness lay in a devotion that would be interrupted only by the rude fact of mortality and whose sadness lay in contemplating the terrible solitude that awaited the one unlucky enough to outlive all the others. Sometimes, of course, you wondered about the shadow side of such contrived domestic contentment, the parental selfishness or childish insecurity or lamentable romantic wound that demanded such a fortress existence.

The hotel, in any event, was a sociable place built around these two lovely innocents, the devout and scurrying and clearly doting mother and the trilling and unfailingly solicitous son. Perhaps because I was undergoing the predictable upsurgings of veneration and spirituality that casual Protestants often experience in deeply Catholic countries, I thought they seemed holy. Indeed, the severity of the hotel made you feel a little virtuous for staying there. It was built around a vine-shaded garden, and every morning I would awaken to the sonance of this gentle fellow fluting to the guests. He spoke in Italian or English, as if all he desired in life was their comfort. Was the room all right? Was there a need for more coffee or butter? Or for directions to the place for catching the tour boats? The man was an extremely polite musical alarm clock, rousing me gently, and when I went down for breakfast under the grape arbor, where I took my latte in an encompassing, almost aqueous green light in the incomparable Italian morning, and asked if there was a fishing tackle store in the town, he sang me to the right place.

I found it the first day, and many a mild afternoon after finishing my writing, I made my way down there to eye the owner's comely daughter and to try to wheedle local knowledge from her old man. The stock of fishing gear was limited, as was the proprietor's English. But in other respects, it was the ideal tackle store. The place was a combination working man's bar, coffee shop and news stand. It had bee...

Customer Reviews

A revealing look at life after loss.
Beautifully written by a great writer. Understanding some of life's tougher lessons through the filter of fly fishing. An appreciation of his life and the woman in it. At times very funny and at times politically incisive. Always instructive! Buy this book now.

More than a fish tale
Even readers who have never caught a fish will appreciate Howell Raines' eloquent descriptions of fly fishing and its connection to life. Like Hemingway's "The Old Man and the Sea," Raines' memoir beautifully captures the struggle between man and nature. At the same time, he recounts his love-hate relationship with The New York Times and the events that led to his firing as executive editor in the wake of the Jayson Blair scandal. Raines concludes that being fired was the best thing that could have happened to him because it allowed him to pursue the things that are truly important -- writing books, fishing, and enjoying life with his wife and sons. Let's hope there will be more books like this from Mr. Raines.

Thin Metaphor
Raines uses the metaphor of hooking and losing a large fish to describe his career; the surprise of getting a job that was beyond his expectations (hooking the fish), the long tedious years of work (fighting the fish), and his unexpected firing (losing the fish). Raines' first fishing book outlined his political agenda. In his second book, he explains his management oversight that resulted in his dismissal. I prefer fishing literature that makes an environmental point, an ethical fishing point, or is just an entertaining story. I am finished buying Raines' books because I do not care to spend my entertainment money to listen to his personal agenda. Raines' books are editoral pages thinly wrapped in fish.